New Year's Eve

Well, this New Year's Eve was kinda strange. Kids were doing their own thing so it was me, Dad and my dog (Sadie) ringing in the new year. Actually Dad went home about 10:30, so it was me and Sadie. Just like most people so much has happened in 2009, I am ready for a New Year. Being the mom of 2 teenagers has been, at the least, a very humbling experience. The only thing I wish for my kids is happiness, contentment, success at whatever makes them the most satisfied. I cannot help but to wonder where I went wrong when I see my kids struggle. It seems like yesterday that they were 3 and 5, watching Lion King over and over and over, wanting to play with me and climbing up in my lap for a snuggle. Trust me, I would never want to live these teen years over again, but often times I find myself wishing I could go back in time, to the simpler times of having little ones. I get nervous thinking about what the future will hold for my little family. Will my kids be okay? Will I ever meet someone? Now is not a good time for me to be involved with someone, too many things going on. But I would really like to meet Mr. Wonderful in about 5 years. This time I will be picky! I must be! My fantasy man: a few years older than me, tall, kinda stocky, financially secure...what the hell....very secure. He must be motivated and have a good job, he must be a 'handy man' ( I am getting tired of figuring out what to do when something breaks around the house!). He must adore me, want to take care of me, but also he must allow me to take care of him. He will not have young kids (too much baggage), but he must love mine. If divorced he must be divorced for some time, no re-bound relationships please! See....I don't ask for too much.