Long time no post

Yes it has been a very long time since I have posted anything. I have a diary of sorts that I write in. Shelby gave it to me several years ago....about 6. I write in it about every few months and I will keep it forever. It is very special to me and I guess that is what this blog is to me....a diary of sorts......not like anyone reads it. I don't expect anyone to. It is catharctic (did I spell that right?) to put my thoughts down.
Anyway..........after that mindless rambling I want to bring this blog up to speed I guess. Ben is back with me and Shelby. It is what it is. Him and Dickhead could not play together in the sandbox so he is back here. The plan is that he stays here until he goes to bootcamp Oct 23rd....oh yeah, forgot to mention that Ben joined the Army. I really think that will be the best thing for my son. He tells me he is looking forward to going and is actually tired of waiting. Now if we can just keep him out of jail until Oct 23rd.
Shelby of course would have loved it if he did not come back home. What were my options? Have my son live on the street? She is not the biggest picnic either of course. To be honest she can be the most self centered bitch on the face of the planet one day and the most loving and giving person the next. I guess that is like any of us.
Dad is retired....so now I am his sole source of entertainment. Not tooooo bad most days, but some times I just get a little worn out and wish he would find a hobby or take a class or something.
Gpa is still plugging along and doing very well, mom too. Don't get to see them as much as I would like.....but that will change after Oct 23rd......
The hardest part of all of this is the daily feeling of being pulled in so many directions and always worrying about making everybody happy. I get so tired of stressing about who is mad, sad, pissed, etc etc etc..........
Well, my puppies are still great and so is my job.....I do have a lot to be grateful for.....
I am tired and will sleep now, and will update sooner rather than later next time.
Until then............